Thursday, April 03, 2008 @ 10:16 PM
over
2 ppts in a span of a day. the class was receptive, the questions answered. for the morning one i juz stood there like a dumbledore during q and a. mebe i was tired, mebe i was juz sick of dwelling over it for so long. mebe its juz me. aidan said i had a sian face aft i finished my part. chong gave me a hi five. i duno y i felt so kanchiong b4 i went up. i guess those tt knew my pain were glad it turned out ok.
the afternoon one was chopchop too. onli had 3 slides and finished it in 3 mins? tt one i managed to open my mouth. and tell leon to speak for the smokers. and he ah, wan to put words into my mouth and sae smoking is good. NOT! i can empathise but i do not condone. =p
gal dont feel screwed ok. its not your fault. we kept it a shush shush thing. u r not a rumour monger. so dont tk it too hard! it sent me thinking hard too but im glad its clarified. im glad i asked.
i hope i din mk anyone feel particularly affected by it. and i duno if u read this and noe who u r but i guess it wld b easy for anyone, particularly if the person is single, to misunderstand. i trust u tts y i asked u. im glad i was honest and im glad u were too. i do understan hw u treat it like a normal outing, juz like wat we have and prob the person takes it on another level. and i hope the person takes it well, no matter how u explained it. u r glad i told u, and once agn im glad i did it before it might/might not spiral into sth further. its under wraps nw. and i saw the person looking ok.
rained heavily aft class todae and took 10 w dawa all e wae cos he din have an umbrella. nice talking to him altho i was a tad tired after waking up at an unearthli hour todae. secret ok between the 2 of us. haha. we were juz talking abt the status of ppl in e class and many are attached, and how it wld b sweet to have an hons class couple... dawa's choice cant be revealed for personal 'sumpa' (promise) but i chose 2 eligible people! haha...guessguess who r they..cai zhong you jiang..haha...
after dawa alighted i plugged in to my ipod. watched e rain dribble down the sides of the bus. stared at ppl waiting at the bus stops. and gradually fell aslp like sadako with hair falling in frt of my face. haha. woke up to reach upper east coast, nodded off agn den was bedok and the like. it took me eons to reach home finalli but i liked the feeling of not rushing. of taking time to enjoy me time. of watching the world spin by.
i was a temperamental little midget when i was younger. i didnt noe how to handle my feelings and used to cry alot, slam doors, throw tantrums. now i know how to ctrl these feelings but its e hiding tt makes mi tired. and when the inside breaks down, those who hv been 'honoured' to be complained at for starters, and to be cried to for main course, and to hear me laugh for dessert. so i wldnt sae tt im not tolerant, but like a volcano, can tahan but once spill over den cannot stop.
i stil look like a little midget compared to other ladies in class and look like those type tt needs to be taken care of. but surprise! im an independent midget tomboy loud voice chilli padi monster crybaby. i need to go on. cant burn out!
when u reach the end of your rope, tie a knot and HANG ON. - franklin d. roosevelt
push urself harder, the end is near.
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