Wednesday, November 23, 2005 @ 12:07 AM
rite..its time to blog..haha...taking a
break from literature...which is due tml 9am cos now its areadi 27 mins past 12am on wed...
aniwae...watched the first episode of
super host...the auditions one...saw some familiar faces be it online previousli or on the show...interesting to see ppl being happi, angri, sad, silli on tv...
everibodi wans to be a star...wats up w singapore idol,
jue dui superstar, star idol and now we have super host...be it the money, the car, the fame or the chance to realise a dream...
i hv dreams of
being a star too! dates back to
pri sch...haha...wat a long time ago this is...tt time stil hv wat we call
cai hua heng yi chu xing xiu...where they discovered zoe tay, chew chor meng, ann kok, jacelyn tay and the like...kiddy dreams told myself that when i
reach 2005 den can join liao...cos the event was held everi 2 yrs or sth...den i count and tell myself that i'll b 20 then...so can join liao...haha...it was the earli 1990s then...so the millenium and beyond sounded so foreign..
and now we hop, skip and jump to the
present and
wala~ after mani
peanut butter and jelly sandwiches (the count in sesame street has this spell called 'ala peanut butter sandwiches...=)) have passed, here i m. 20. but no
cai hua heng chu xing xiu to join.
no dreams of stardom(juz a little)...and...juz wanting to laugh at my kiddy dreams...personalli cant imagine myself queueing up for these competitions in the rain and the sun juz to have like 2 mins w the judges to see if u can go thru this round and the next and get to appear on tv, n b pretty and hv fans screaming ur name...and getting a car n money n the contract when u win...
perhaps im
content w wat i hv now...wat
performance chances tt i hv with mainworks, in kr, perhaps in nus i duno...or mebe even outside drama grps...or even 'performing' during LITO at sentosa...its juz a matter of 'showing' urself to ppl...not in the context of being fake but...juz bein someone, doing something tt ppl will pay attention to...lk sometimes when the teachers gv feedback sae 'i like ur voice, very loud n clear, then the children can listen. and how u tell them the info, in small bits so the children can absorb better.' makes mi feel good... =) its this way of being in the limelight, albeit in different shapes and
size
s and
colours. tts wat i see myself doing now.
perhaps if given a chance i would lk to
try to see how these competitions work...haha...and mebe if im lucky i can b on tv too...mos prob if dragged along w a fren or sth la...aniwae...i stil got appear on tv ma...stil remember back in
p6, there was this feature on the opera that we did after the psle...then got interviewed by am singapore...den
p4 appeared on tv for chi story telling competition...(i hv the recording!) haha...den on
qian xian zhui zong for
tj national dae celebrations wat...who sae no chance to appear on tv even if u are not a star? haha...
at least
i noe where im heading...with my career in sight...income in the bank...i will depend on myself to get my own dream car...future house and wat not...okie tt seems abeet far...but at least now...i can get my own luxuries, spend money on myself on rewards, fulfill my acceptable wants...i earn my money fr LITO fr tuition...who tell mi to work so hard? nobodi...i juz feel lk it...sense of satisfaction or wat ego thing u call it or even u may tink cos u hv no money or u hv too much time on ur hands...so be it...
im contented.
used to be kinda
but i guess
realli.
5-2=3
leisure recre n tourism due later in the dae on hm grd(kent ridge hall's hall) at 5pm...
lit tml 9am
ecosystems sat 9am
n u're free gal.
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